Sometimes I get discouraged. I'm not really sure just exactly what it is I should be doing with my life. Did I choose the right career? Right now I'm not feeling like a great success at work. Should I be climbing some ladder, should I be achieving more? Do I even really care?
I see people all around me doing big things. I have friends pursuing doctoral degrees. I have friends traveling the world. I see them doing these things, these big things, and it stirs up all kinds of emotions in me. I feel happy and excited for them, but I also feel a little bit jealous. I feel jealous because I'd like to do something, too. My problem is I don't know what I want to do. I think it's pretty dumb to not even know what you want. Everything is kind of at a standstill for me right not and sometimes I feel jealous and frustrated and sad.
But then I hold my babies. I hold them and I watch them play and I know without any doubt that I am exactly where I am supposed to be doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing. A good friend of mine told me we should thank God for the seasons of our lives. I've thought about that statement a lot. I've thought about how true and right it is and how grateful I am for the opportunity to raise two little boys when I know so many people who would give anything to experience the very things I complain about.
"Right here, right now, there is no other place I wanna be."
Thank you Jesus Jones, I couldn't have said it better myself.
I feel like I have drifted through my entire adult life not knowing where I was suppose to be. Pretty sure that wherever I am isn't the right place.
ReplyDeleteI don't necessarily get envious of people that are doing the things you are talking about, but I get envious of people who seem confident about whatever it is they are doing. Like they just know their path and don't need to "figure it out".
I have thought the same things many times. Beautifully said.
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